The idea came this summer while I was visiting museums in Paris, among them the famous Louvre museum. I saw top art pieces from many great cultures. Not the kind of art that you have to understand and study to discover why it is supposed to be beautiful, or even interesting. What I saw was just simply great, inspiring, beautiful and fascinating art.
A lot of the really great Art is inspired by mythology or religion. And religion can be regarded as a special kind of mythology. As you walk from one room to another, you walk from one culture to another all with their own symbols and stories. I love those stories and have read and collected them for years.
I realised that it doesn't make sense for me to make references to myths of other cultures or religions as I am not really connected and imerged in them. I wondered what symbols, gods and godesses would be appropriate in my world.
Somehow I have got a feeling that our time is lacking the big stories which give everything a sense and coherence. It has all fallen apart.
But there are recurring images in my dreams and sometimes in meditations which have a meaning for me. And then the idea arose to start mapping them and develop my own mythology. Those images, symbols and stories which have been rising out of my unconscious and have started to have a meaning . It could be nice to make them more explicit.
The idea is nice but when you want to start doing it you get lost very quickly. There is so much.
A lot of myths do refer to basic questions as where do we come from and where are we going, or what happens after death and how to live and love. I did chose to start clarifying the where do I come from. The HOME question. And develop my story, a myth.
It connects nicely with what I have done before, my study of Prehistoric Art, and my queste for living in harmony with nature, which I have called home before.
The 4th of September I will start a new artist in residence experience. This time in the south of Sweden. What attracted me is that it is in a natural reservation, a wooded area at the seaside. Not the powerful Atlantic this time. A coastline with many little islands. And they say it is really deeply silent there. I am very much looking forward to that.
I will paint, wrtite and draw, may be make some little sculptures. I will take foto's from the environment and when I see possibilities will use locally available natural materials.
My plan is to start mapping my own mythology.
From September 4 I will be artist in residence in the South of Sweden. It is in a protected natural area where forest grows till the sea. It is supposed to be very silent a good place to immerge myself in silence and work.
It is always difficutl to choose the materials to take with me as I don't know exactly what the environment will bring out. Right now I make a lot of try outs with all kind of matrials.
And there are so many images coming in my dreams and meditations which all want to find an expression.
Since a week or two I feel a burning kind of intese joy inside my chest. I don't know where it comes from. It seems to be there almost continously regardless of circumstances. But it does make a difference in how I experience circumstances. What used to be stressful for me isn't stressful anymore. Most events are much more enjoyable. Being in crowded places for instance in the city. It still isn't my favorite place to be, but it doesn't bring me out of balance, or taking a metro at rush hour, no problem at the moment. It gives a wonderful feeling of freedom and energy.
Sometimes it goes to my head and then I feel like being drunk. I am full of ideas and inclined to run off in totally different directions, very chaotic and very difficult to make a choice, over excited. It is so much too much. Then I have to calm myself, stop thinking, do something very physical or do noting at all and everything becomes clear again.
Now my challenge is to trust that feeling, relax into it and trust that whatever will happen is just fine. Even when I don't understand exactly why I feel I have got to do something and I can't follow all my impulses.
Acrylic on canvas 40 x 50 cm.
The first is with natural pigments in an acrylic binder the second is just with chemical colours.
I like the translucency and you can work fast.
But with the natural pigments and egg yolk I have the feeling the paintng is much more alive in itself. With the acrylic it easily becomes like a printed image, the image becomes more important then the being of the work. I will probably go back to the tempera technque.
Yesterday I have given my car back to the garage where it came from. Form now on I will try to live whithout a car again or at least share a car with other people.
My car was a nice one nonetheless. A friendly, modest, old small dark green car with a gentle character, always protecting me and bringing me safely where I wanted to be.
Almost twenty years ago I did buy a house close to a busy road. I reconciled myself with that fact by thinking that cars would soon be outdated and other means of transportation would be found.
I am still waiting for that "soon coming".
As I am not into technology I leave it to others to find out how that will be possible.
I give it more chance that I will master the skill of bi-location and teleportation then that I will find an technological alternative. What I learned so far is that those skills start with a strong emotionally charged intent. The e-motion gives the energy for motion. A strong wish to be there on that location and then nothing else, no thought, no ambivalence, no doubt, only that clear focus, with that, you can move anywhere.
Staying in that clear focus and then allowing it to happen in total confidence that is all what those skills are about. Easy and difficult at the same time.
But with strong desires there is often the tricky part that they rise from pain of missing or fear of not getting there, missing out, failing and when that is the emotion which fuels your desire you don't get it, you realise your fears instead. You need to be lighthearted and simple minded. It is an interesting technology of consciousness that is a kind of technology I like to play with.
When you master that skill you can paint in your life circumstances whatever you want. Life is an art. I would paint lots of old majestic trees, silent stary nights, lots of flowers every where in all seasons and happy passionate people in love with the beauty of the universe. And of coarse a world whithout streets and cars, no airplanes either but everyone can move easily, safely, swift and silent to wherever they want.