Looking back on the work I have done during my stay in Sweden I recognise a red line in different projects I have done in the past. it is always connected to clarify where I am standing, where I came from, my roots. It is all about the origin. The history of mankind in prehistoric times, the origin of life into the waters of the world, and now the mythological stories. 

Stories from a world which I have always been carrying inside of me. My dreamworld and it's patterns. The main story is about the lost continent of Lemuria and a totally different way of being human. Different then most people around me are, nowadays. The perfect projection screen to create a world where I have my origin and  feel at home, feel rooted. Rooted in a state of being which is totally fluïd and in continuous change and stepping trough wormholes into alternative realities is a daily practice. Kind of weird to have roots in something so intangible, mutable and unstable. 

And of coarse all my work is also about nature and relating to nature, But also there the patterns I see don't have limited forms, they are whithout scale.  A close up becomes a landscape in itself. Also there it is the fluidity of the material forms which fascinates me.

Vandaag was er wat meer licht dan gisteren. Gisteren was het een donkere zonloze dag. Het water lijkt steeds iets van de stemming en energie te reflecteren: herfstige verstilling en nerveuze onrust. Terwijl ik mediteer aan de waterkant moest ik denken aan het verhaal van Jezus die over het water liep. Van op een afstand ziet het er uit alsof dat perfect mogelijk is. Van dichtbij durf ik het toch niet te proberen. Mijn geloof is nog niet sterk genoeg.

Ik tracht mijn werk hier tot een afronding te brengen en mijn vertrek voor te bereiden. Toch is snel iets afmaken zowel met schilderen als schrijven onmogelijk. Mijn tempo is traag vandaag.

Some details of my cultural environment.

These photos are from a big granite rock wall in the forest.
Today I wrote a little fragment about images I associate with those big granite rocks. It will be part of my mythological world, which I still try to order. It is a challenging task. There are certain figures which represent a certain way of being, or an energy and then there are stories and fragments of stories. But little by little it grows and get more coherence.
After that I made a painting trying to capture something  of this stone experience. I have always seen granite rocks in the proximity of the sea, so somehow they are also connected with the waters of the world. The painting might still change later on. It is acrylic on canvas en approximately 1.50 high and 80 cm. wide.

On this web page www.thoughtco.com/what-is-granite-1440992
https://www.thoughtco.com/what-is-granite-1440992 written by Andrew Alden I did find some information about the geological background of granite and this statement struck me because it matches what I saw, while writing about it this morning:

"Granite is the signature rock of the continents. More than that, granite is the signature rock of the planet Earth itself. The other rocky planets--Mercury, Venus and Mars—are covered with basalt, as is the ocean floor of Earth. But only Earth has this beautiful and interesting rock type in abundance."

Murmuring water in a little stream in the forest.

This morning I got up at fife and left for a walk hoping to see some wild animals. I only saw one nervous female deer. I did hear strange sounds and for a moment was flooded with a fear of unknown potentially dangerous wild animals. My instinct made me quickly move out of the woods to a more open area where I can see what is around me. The strange sounds turned out to be of human origin, the most dangerous animal around. The navy boats make a roaring weird sound. Later there were some far away explosions too. 
I did reflect on that fear of nature, the fear of being suddenly confronted with an unexpected life threatening danger. It is what makes us do so much to get things under control. And it is probably what makes people behave so destructive towards nature. Am I able to face and accept a sudden death or injury whithout becoming fearful??? Probably not...

The early morning was like usual but with a nervous tension in the air. During the day I heard bad news from two friends. It is difficult to concentrate on working today. The outer world seems to get nuts.

Nonetheless I keep seeing the beauty around me, made some more foto's. It takes me away. When I am in the fotographing mode, my vision changes and I forget everything around me. 

I chose two series from this morning shoots

I keep seeing amazing colours and textures and combinations which are like the most beautiful abstract paintings.

Vandaag de laatste hand gelegd aan twee verwante schilderijen in acryl op doek  beide 72 x 72 cm.