Change is permanent, it is nothing to understand

 " Change is permanent" I don't kow who said that before me, but it is indeed very very true. My life seems to be a constant chain of transitions on different domains. It is sometimes quite exhausting, like having to learn a new language every time again and again.
​ My body doesn't like too much change. My body wants things which are familiar. The familiar gives a feeling of safety. But what was so strange in the beginning also becomes familiar after a while.  

I do not understand life at all. I just let it happen and try not to resist what happens to me and what I feel. 

I try to look at everything which happens to me as a very special gift, especially and carefully chosen for me, in perfect attunement with so much more then I wil ever be able to understand. I receive it as the special gift, feel it, listen to it, look at it. Every person I meet, every animal and plant I see, the wind which I feel on the skin, the sun, the rain, the things I smell and taste, the events happening around me, the way they make me feel, the tides of my mood, the coming and going of emotions and ideas. All very special gifts especially organised for me. It is so much to be thankful for, altough it might be a little bit overwhelming.