July 23rd, 2019

There is a heatwave. This week temperature will go above 40 degrees Celsius here too. Together with information about huge fires in the arctic and many millions of people who have to leave their homes because of flooding or lack of water. It all starts to look and feel very apocalyptic. 

I have always felt related to the many different stories in the mythology or sacred texts of different cultures about the big flood. The flood where the Gods of God destroyed all living beings to punish them for their sins. As a child  I used to have nightmares about a huge wall of water coming over the land and destroying everything.

Whithout supernatural powers doing anything special we seem to be punished for our sins, punished for the burning of fossile fuels, punished for greed and lack of moral development, punished for lack of solidarity.  The word puishment is not correct it is more a logical consequence of this behaviour. It makes that we have to face the extinction of many species, of animals and plants and of our fellow human beings. We might even have to face our death as a consequence. 

It can make me feel very angry, and very depressed. It can make me feel to hate it all and not wanting to be part of it. It can be quite difficult to find a place where life is simply good and happy and where that shadow is not hanging over you. I call home that place where people are naturally friendly and loving and caring about one another and about all living beings around them and where all can thrive, where Life is pure and simple. People may say that I belief in fairy tales and that I should get real, but I refuse to believe that human Life in it's essence is anything different than that. 

Meanwhile also the anger and desperation needs a heart willing to feel it. Like a caring mother when her child falls asks where does it hurt? Wit her loving attention the pain dissolves and the healing follows. Whatever emotion the heat might rise let it be accepted as it is, let it have its space with respect whithout overreacting on it. 

I wish I would be better in doing what I think that should be done.

Waves of emotion seem to be like the emotions shudering a huge human body.  The earth and all the living creatures on it are like that body. Every living being is like a single cell in this body. Every cell is a world on it's own and has it's own specific appearance and specific functions though it has the DNA of the whole and is connected with the whole body. Very much like a hologram. Very much like all human beings being different but also very much the same. What I feel is what "we"feel and we only have to let it be to let it continue in a flow ever changing ever the same. The emotion is like a wave trough the body fluid affecting all cells. We all know the same kind of emotions altough we subscribe them to different circumstances. 

In order to understand the world around me and make some sense out of my experiences and perceptions I have to write.