A last time around the island before our return. It was such a perfect day. So totally peaceful, little wind, a very calm ocean, singing birds and a lot of new spring flowers. It did feel like a confirmation that coming back here is a good idea. Instantly dreams about buying a little house here return. A few hours later someone tells me how hard life is for a lot of people living on this paradisiac island. Such a weird contrast. I think nature is the best guide. When nature feels good then the human level will find it's way as well.
For several years I have been searching for a place where I could live in peaceful harmony with nature. A place with clean air, clean drinking water, a pure wild forest, it is all here. I realise that life has exactly offered me what I wanted. And that is in fact very often the case. But when my mind is focussed on problems then that is included in the package as well. I get what I wanted plus the problems I was focussed upon.
More and more I wonder what is worse wanting....
I am looking forward to be back in the busy crazy overcrowded world up north. Wonder whether I will be better capable to deal with it now that I know that I can come back here. And also knowing that the feeling of being home for which I was yearning, is something which can be created anywhere.