Waves

It is a time of often quite intense emotios flowing trough me like waves, coming going and coming back again. They push themselves trough my system like babies wanting to be born. Once they are out I feel free again.
It makes me sometimes feel confused and uncertain. Then people show up willing to tell me what is wrong with me and I tend to believe them for a little while. But later I find out that in fact it wasn't correct or only very partially true.
I have to trust myself even when I feel uncomfortable and awkward. Letting go of the urge to get things under control and arrange and fix it, do something about it, get organised. The fixing makes it fixed and it becomes an obstacle.
​All my decisions and actions have to grow organically in tune with the earth, the rain and the sun. When I trust that I can act and move at the right moment.
And also when I ask a question and really listen with an open quiet mind answers do come very simple and clear.